Zen: (noun) A Japanese school of Mahayana Buddhism emphasizing the value of meditation and intuition.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Boats and Blogger

Okay, sometimes I'm dense.  Sometimes I don't always see things when they are right in front of me.  But most times I'm sharp and intuitive.  I can tell what someone is feeling just by being in their presence.  I can pick up on clues from my students and use those clues to guide the room to the learning I want them to have.  I know what my husband is thinking before he does.

Then why can't I figure out what the hell God wants me to do?  

There's an old joke that goes something like this...
A terrible storm blows through a town and leaves it flooded.  An old man who lives alone in his home, climbs to his roof to escape the rising water and begins to pray.  "Lord," he prays, "save me from this rising water...don't let me drown."

About that time a rescue boat comes by and tries to get the old man to get in the boat.  He refuses.  "God will save me," he says.

Two more rescue boats come by and try to save the man and each time he refuses with the same refrain, "God will save me."

He drowns.

When he gets to heaven his asks God, "Why didn't you save me?  I prayed and prayed and you let me drown."

God replies, "Dude!  I sent you three boats!"
I don't want to be that guy but I also don't want to be the whack job that thinks every time she stubs her toe that it's a sign from God she needs new shoes!  Wait...that might be a good one...I might want to rethink that.

ANYWAY...Suddenly there are a wealth of new roles coming up in my particular expertise.  With the blessing of my current boss, I have applied for a couple of these.  I try to say, "if God wants me to go down this path, then everything will come together."  I try.  But then I think, have I done enough?  Should I be reaching out to people and greasing the skids so to speak or should I just sit back and let the Big Guy work?  Then, if nothing happens, is it my fault or was it all just meant to be?  Does He have bigger plans in store for me or did I totally miss the boat (get it...miss the boat...haha)?  How do I know when to let Him do the heavy lifting and when I should be lifting as well?

It's all very confusing.  Or is it just that I can't let go?  I have a headache and I need some chocolate.


PS - and my Blogger is acting very, very weird.  I'm not sure if they're on to me at work or if it's Blogger but I'm having to click a bunch of formatting buttons before it will let me type in the text box AND I can't use my mouse. 

Maybe it's sunspots.  Or maybe it's a sign!  Nah...it's probably sunspots.


  1. I think you do as much as you can and then you pray and ask for a sign. Sign's are not wacko, ignoring them is.

    Every time I've asked for a sign lately, I've received one, I still don't know where they're leading me but I'm pretty sure I'm going the right way.

    1. I know you're right Kary May...it's just me second guessing myself again. Don't worry, eventually He'll hit me over the head with a brick and I'll get it.

  2. Great post, great questions. I have absolutely no answers to this because I have the same questions. I don't resist, I guess is what the answer is. Today I am blatantly disregarding a very clear sign I had last night and letting my ego and very tired body take over. So have I decided that I am in charge of things now? I guess so. Dumb, I know. But I am too tired to go where I need to go. In fact I am going to have a nap after writing this, before I head off to work (I know, I have been up for 3 hours and already having a nap). So where am I going with this? I can't remember. Don't resist. Or me being hypocritical and saying that and then doing the opposite as I am demonstrating.

    Ugh, being human sucks sometimes.